Off To A Great Start!

This isn’t the entry (that I still plan to write!) I mentioned in my last post, but I just had to share the news. My dad did make it through the surgery, and everything seems to be going great so far. It will not be an easy recovery, and he is in a lot of pain, but it looks like he’s off to a great start!

So, I’m ecstatic about that!!! I just hope everything will go well, but it’s a huge relief to know he made it through the first major trial in this whole process. A huge thank you to everyone that commented, took the time to read, and left a like. I really can’t express how much I appreciate the support. Thank you so much, all you lovely people. It really does mean the world to me.

We’ll see how everything goes, but I couldn’t have asked for a better start!

Tomorrow’s The Big Day

To say tomorrow is a big day for my family would be an understatement. After learning this past summer about my dad’s kidney problems, a successful kidney transplant was always the best case scenario for him. And this Tuesday is the day of the surgery.

I don’t have any idea what will happen tomorrow, and of course nobody does. I’m hopeful for the best, but expecting the worst. Anything is possible. The hospital is supposed to be great, as well as the surgical team. My dad passed every test he needed to, in order for this surgery to be approved. So, everything should be good, in theory.

Yet, I know my dad’s body is in bad shape. Through his poor lifestyle choices, and unwillingness to change or listen to reason, he has sabotaged his health. He has put his future, and his very life in jeopardy. And this is no small surgery. It’s going to put an intense strain on his body.

Then there’s the issue of the kidney taking to his body. He has to be very diligent in taking his medication, or everything could be for naught. And he’s been very reckless when it comes to taking his medication in general. The road to recovery shall be long, and hard. He must put everything into this, if he wants the best result possible.

He’s supposed to check into the hospital by five am, but the surgery won’t be until 1 pm. It should last for around four to five hours. So, it’ll be awhile until we find out the results of the surgery. My mother won’t even get to be there a lot tomorrow, because of other obligations. So, I have no idea when I’ll find out what happened. It’s going to be a long day tomorrow, to say the least.

I don’t want to imagine what life would be like without my dad. I’ve already suffered some losses this year, and don’t want another, especially a seismic one like this. Life would never be quite the same anymore. My family would have a lot to figure out, and more than anything else, his presence is what I’d miss the most.

My siblings and I have so much more to do, and accomplish. I really don’t want him to miss out on all of that. It really would be a shame, especially since it was definitely preventable. It’d be a great loss for everyone.

The future is uncertain, as always. But, I know no matter what happens, I’ll keep fighting the good fight. Even if the worst case scenario happened, I’m not going to quit. If anything, it’ll probably end up motivating me even more. But, I hope none of my family will have to face that future. It would be a very difficult one, no doubt.

Sometime in the future, I’ll definitely share news of what happened. But, there’s some other news I’ll share as well in this future post. Like some of my 2018 highlights! I haven’t forgotten about that. So, please look forward to that!

Wish my dad the best! We’ll see what happens tomorrow. Hopefully the news will be good!!!

The Falcon Of Lastastia Pt. 1: Higher Than The Sun

Friends, the time has finally arrived!!! Here is part one of The Falcon Of Lastastia. According to the date of the last time I edited it, I finished this poem back on August 27th, 2018. So quite a while ago!!!

I hated sitting on it for so long, but I just had to wait for the right time. And that time, is now!! I hope everyone will enjoy it. Even reading it now, I’m quite proud of the result. I really am quite pleased with it!

Before each part, I do plan to set up the scene with some prose. I don’t expect to write a novel’s worth of sentences, but I will write as much as I see fit or desire. Hopefully it’ll help flesh things out, at least a little bit, and be enjoyable to read.

This poem centers around Necronominos, the god of the moon. If you want to read more about him, or need a refresher, check out this link! It leads to a previous post, which includes a brief character bio on Necronominos, as well as Illuminestres, the goddess of the sun.

I also want to mention that I did finish part 3!!! I’m pretty certain I know what part 4 will be about, but I have no timetable for it, nor have I started it yet. Surely, it will happen though, eventually!!

 

The Night The Moon Came Crashing Down: The Fall Of Necronominos

 

Many years ago, long before The Falcon would see the light of day, Necronominos was stirring late one night. He was feeling quite miffed, perturbed over his place in life. “It just didn’t seem right! It just couldn’t be!! How could the world not see!!!”

“Lastastia is blind, and robbed of the very best it could have,” he snarled to himself. Life couldn’t possibly be so unfair, let alone so arbitrary, so inane! “Fate is not fixed in stone. One’s part to play, is not the only way. Some are just too brilliant to be held back!!!”

So, within his palace, that resided within the holy city of the Gods, on a night like any other, a rebellion was born. Something that started so small, seemingly so innocuous, would tear Lastastia in two. His heart swelling with pride like a river that had a little too much rain, he overflowed with self-conceit. Before an audience of one (Only Necronominos himself, of course!) he began to sing.

 

The Falcon Of Lastastia Part 1: Higher Than The Sun

By

J.E.

What made you so much better
That the pantheon crowned you Queen
Why do the poets struggle in their tributes
And the most divine voices in praise sing

Everyone talks about how great you are
Oh Goddess of the Sun
But if I had my way
I’d be number One

The Moon is supposed to reflect your glory
But that’s too paltry of a task
For a being of such splendor
It’d be an insult just to ask

Why should I be content
And not filled with malice and resent
This damned conspiracy!!!
Everyone is just against me

Surely jealous, I do not doubt
For I am a man of great ability
Talent oozes from every pore
To resist my charms, pure futility

Higher than the Sun
Such a thought, is oh so fun
And when all is said, and done
I shall be The One

Epics shall be written
Songs shall be sung
Kids will be named after me
I’ll be first in all hearts for eternity

I shall plot
And I shall scheme
Step by step
I’ll reach my dream

My followers will increase
My acolytes will be extra fervent
And soon the flames of war shall arise
And all those aligned with the Sun
Shall meet their demise

©

More Bad News

Today I found out that my Uncle Greg died. My Aunt Maggie called to give my Dad the news. He was the youngest sibling of the three. I’m still not sure exactly how he died, but from what I’ve heard it might have been a heart attack or stroke.

I never got to spend too much time with him, but every memory I have is a good one. He possessed an amazing warmth, and seemed so enthusiastic about life. It was definitely enjoyable to be around him.

I’m definitely worried for my grandparents. They’re both in their eighties, and I don’t know how they will deal with such a huge loss like this. It came out of nowhere; nobody saw it coming. The grief might be too much for them to bear, especially at their age.

All I want is for my family to be granted the strength to overcome this tragedy. To move on the best we can, and to remember that brighter days are ahead, even when the darkness looms ever thick. But it’s never easy to deal with something like this.

The older I get, the more I realize just how fragile life is. It’s amazing the things people deal with, and overcome. The accomplishments, and heights some reach. And yet, all it takes is one thing, and we are no more.

It’s true when they say to seize the day. For we all only have so many, and those we love as well. We really should try our best to make the most of the moments we have, and those we share with each other.

On a more positive note, I have been feeling better lately. I’ve been sick since last Thursday. But, I’ve been trying to rest more, and I can tell I’m going in the right direction. So, I’m definitely happy about that.

May my Uncle rest in peace. I thank him for the good memories he gave me, and everybody else as well. He will not be forgotten.

Sad Night Tonight

It’s a sad night tonight, friends. Our family dog Poncho, has passed away. I think it was exactly two months today, till his 17th birthday. He was a cute little black Chihuahua, with a little white stripe down his forehead. Easy to love, possessing a much larger heart than his body size would suggest. He really was something else.

I’ll probably share some pictures of him eventually, and tell some stories as well. But tonight I just ask that you’ll keep my family in your thoughts. I’m definitely going to miss him. I was a freshman in high school when we got him, and now I’m in my early thirties. He was such a fixture in our family for so long. It’s going to be strange not having him there anymore. Like someone’s missing; he’s the one that’s missing.

But, I’m glad he won’t have to suffer anymore. It really was his time to pass on. He had nothing left to give. Life takes it’s course, and we all have to take our bow at some point. Rest in peace, Poncho. You’ll never be forgotten, and thanks for all of the good years. For all of the good memories. In my heart, you’ll always remain, forever.

Come On, Let’s Break Through!

Happy New Year everyone!!! I hope 2019 will be a year that can surprise, and delight you in unexpected ways. May dreams be realized, and successes enjoyed!

Overall I’d say 2018 was a good year for me. I won’t say it’s the amazing one that I want to experience someday, but I did make actual strides forward in my life. I will talk about that in another post!

I also would like to make a post talking about my hopes, and dreams for 2019. There are many things I’d like to accomplish this year.

The problem with making these posts, is there’s only so much time, and there’s quite a few other posts besides these that I would like to make. But it’ll happen, eventually! I promise!!

To commemorate the year, I decided to make a poem for you, my dear readers. I really do want this to be an amazing year for you, as well, so I thought a poem might be a neat way to express such thoughts. The beginning of it just came to me earlier today. It was very spontaneous, and I knew I just had to write it! Eventually I was able to complete it to my satisfaction.

We’ll all go through highs, and lows. But I am amazed at the progress we can make, if we just take things one step at a time. It can seem so hard, even impossible. And yet it can be so easy, and very attainable.

I hope you’ll enjoy the poem, but I hope you’ll enjoy this year even more. You were meant for great things; we all are. Some will reach seemingly impossible heights, sure. But we all have our place, and sphere of influence.

For someone out there we’re that missing puzzle piece. That friend providing that needed word of encouragement. The lover who puts that little extra twinkle of delight, in their partner’s eye. A humble coworker who inspires, and delights. That sibling or child who keeps their family together, and strong. Or that kind stranger who makes someone else’s day, and reminds them that there’s still hope in this dark world.

We can think we’re disposable, but nothing could be further from the truth. There’s a light only you possess. A warmth only you give off. A place only you occupy. You, and only you. You’re completely, and utterly irreplaceable.

The poem is called “Come On, Let’s Break Through!”, which is my New Year’s wish for you. Let’s break through together, and show this world what we’re made of. We’re not victims, we’re conquerors!!!

 

Come On, Let’s Break Through!

By

J.E.

 

Come on, let’s break through!
It seems hard, but it’s an easy thing to do
One step, one breath at a time
And then we’re born anew

The rain will pour
The clouds might have a case of the grays
But with a determined heart, and some encouraging love
There will be brighter days

Come on, let’s break through!
I can’t wait to see the amazing things you will do
To see you soar to new and great heights
And watch as your fears and anxieties
Turn tail and run from your amazing might

I believe you can do it
I really do
Destiny is calling
And your glorious victory
Will be so enthralling

Come on, let’s break through
It was once just a dream
But just look at you!

Face beaming
Crystalline tears of joy streaming
Heartache has dissipated
What once seemed a cruel twist of fate
Completely faded!